The struggle is over

i have been thinking about how God has a plan for me i woke up at 3:30 this morning b/c i listen to this radio broadcast on103.5 wmuz and i thought to myself how wonderful god is to wake me up on purpose just to hear His word and how wonderful it was b/c i have been letting myself down to many times. giving up on my dreams god has a plan for me and i believe it He has given me the chance to put my faith in him and i will. I am so happy to know that He has a plan for me. I thought all this time what i was going to do after i graduate from school the only thing that i wanted to do was to sing i can't do anything else my mom doesn't believe that i will make it but if i can write songs and sing then i know i can. My mom has given up on hers and wants me to do something that i don't have any interest in. i have failed myself so many times my brother told me one time that i give up too easily on things i thought about that and it mad me sad to think that i don't believe in myself for that matter and i give up too easily on things that are too hard for me. i don't know why i do that but i have learned without god i can't finish anything. I have also been praying about the shooting i Virginia Tech and how those families will come closer to God and let Him help them with the hurt and pain that they must be feeling right now and for someone to post a school threat in the boys bathroom at Walled lake Western and the girls bathroom at walled lake central is just ignorant to me. i can't believe that people can do something like that at a time like this. if there is i can be sure that i will run like there is no tomorrow and never stop until i can reach a safe place of at least home. my brother kept having dreams about shooting and people getting shot i hope today won't be today nor tomorrow.