Can you guess what i'm thinking?

since no one is listening
it is important to say this
where i would think
all the things to say

my voice is quiet
no i am not depressed
to have a friend to think about
that would be the best

i know it's scary to question
take precaution to your ears
having to express myself
is my greatest fear

to be happy is not a problem
to have too much is overflowing
not enough is a headache
and that can get annoying

shy to my feelings
something i do
something not amusing when
i tell someone off don't you

asking the question of what is
answering is the problem
to say what's on my mind
without giving a hesitation

expressing my deepest feelings
especially the one i think about the most
couple yrs of friendship
is not a problem
to know someone

takes more than an hour
to admire what they do
their looks only question
what meaning behind them
can make one think

Lonely it can be to not be bothered
to much of it can make one upset
having someone do little things
expresses the feeling
i regret showing the most
one thought can interrupt my process

Oh to one too have great feelings
is not a problem
to admitting it can make me
to say it aloud will only make me blush

Very amusing to write to myself
of all i think of without giving a guess
to take yrs to notice
what can amuse me
is a mystery to all

Every moment i think about it
remind me of a friend
to this poem
which i will read from my past
will only make it embarrassing
to an audience of none this is very silly